This has been a difficult week for me on many fronts. And while I hesitate to even pen personal feelings in a public way – I do feel like this is a pivotal moment in life – a time that I want to remember and at some point reflect back on in a positive way. I’ve also learned something about myself this week. I don’t like change. I take comfort in the known and certainty of things and dealing with disruptions and the unexpected, while I recognize that it is what makes us stronger and better, its far from what I want right now and certainly not the path I would not have pursued on my own. I envy those people who can just roll with the punches and appear as if they don’t have a care in the world – however, I do wonder if that’s only a facade to protect them from exhibiting any real feelings.
My mom did share a great verse this week (without even knowing its appropriateness) and while, if I am being honest with myself, I am far from saying this is where I am – it does give me something to aim for.
“Don’t worry about anything instead pray about everything…His peace will keep your thoughts and hearts quiet and at rest.”Phil.4:6-7.”
All that bemoaning aside, there have been many moments of comic relief this week. And for this, I am so grateful.